Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 16
I was on my way to an appointment this morning when it happened.
I noticed the car behind me was the dreaded cop car.
I don't know about you, but when I see a police vehicle, I immediately sit up straighter. And make sure my hands are at 10 and 2 on the steering wheel. And I change the station from lady gaga to enya, cause I'm not a punk. And I leave a full cars length in front of me and the next car at the red light. And I throw my Bible up on the dashboard. And my church bulletin. And my Jesus fish bookmark. And I wipe the fuzz off my teeth with my sweater and practice my most perfect good citizen smile.
And
I
sweat.
It's funny though, don't you think, that even when you know both of your blinkers are working, your seat belt is fastened, and your insurance isn't expired, you still feel like HE'S OUT TO GET YOU, and those blue and red cherry's will be flashing at any moment. At least I feel that way.
Then I thought, I wonder how often I actually think of God that way.
The big mean ogre in the sky, with a giant baseball bat, out to slam me like that little "slam the gopher with a club game" at the fair, and condemn me for every sin I've even thought of committing.
When really, just like the policeman, He's actually there to protect. To keep safe. To intercede on my behalf. To ride a horse in a cool hat that looks like a frisbee. Oh,wait... maybe that's not God, just the police. Well, they do have a lot in common.
At New Years, I asked God to teach me more about His love this year. And He really is. It's incredible how every day situations suddenly become a metaphor for how God loves me. And only He is the one opening my eyes to these things. I love it. It's so personal. Not some far away God at all, but a very intimate Father who really really loves me. And you. It's quite mind blowing.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Day 14&15
Yesterday...
My lovely friend lost her baby. 11 weeks pregnant.
My other beautiful friend said goodbye to her grandma.
The girl down the road who is heavily into all things awful for you, declared she is pregnant and doesn't care to stop these unhealthy behaviors for "some fetus."
A girl in my church, 23 years old, was given 6 months to live. Cancer. She just got married in February.
I am overwhelmed.
I do not understand.
Nor do I guess I need to.
I am called to trust God during these times.
To pray for my friends, their loved ones, their babies.
But my heart is still broken.
It brings me back to a few days ago, posting about how God is deeply in love with every single person, passionately and relentlessly. And then I realize, that any ache I feel in my heart over these circumstances, His heart aches one million times more. Because God is good. All the time. There is no evil in Him. He does not cause disease, sickness, death. And I truly truly believe that He stands beside us when we are faced with these things, and comforts us, as a Father comforts His child, holding on to us with strong arms and a broken heart for our brokeness. He is a good Father. The best Father. And today, I come to Him broken, bringing these people before Him, people He knows intricately. I do not come assuming He does not know the situations. I come to Him asking to give me the wisdom and the words and the actions needed for each circumstance, since He knows better than I. And I ask Him to bundle these people up in a warm fuzzy parka of His love. It's the only thing, the ONLY thing that can ease the ache in their hearts.
Amen.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Day 12&13
Today was not a good day.
And I just don't have energy to write.
So today is just a BLARGGG blog day.
Toldja you never know what you'll get.
Actually, I WILL leave you with a picture.
Oh my gosh...as I'm looking for the picture, Prince L just peed in his little potty, brought it to me to show me and subsequently spilled it on my lap. Seriously, THAT is the PERFECT way to end this crap day!
Well, let's feel better by gazing on this little slice of perfection.
This is me with brand new Princess B.
And now it's off to bed for me.
Thank the Lord tomorrow is a brand new day!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Day 11
My husband has left me.
Ok, well, only for 24 hours...but still...it sucks not having him here.
If you are a lady who has a hubby who's in a line of work that requires consistent travel or even large chunks of time away, like the military...I honestly stand with my jaw on the ground in awe of you.
It's not only the little things, like that he always loads the dishwasher and runs it before bed. Or that he puts the lid back on the toothpaste. Or that he knows how to download...er...buy all the seasons of Dex.
And it's not even just the big things, like that he walks the girls to school EVERY morning, so that I don't have to get 4 babes ready in the morning, but rather can take my time with the boys. Or that he massages my back/feet/shoulders every single night. Or that he teaches our children about the Kingdom of God, and how He wants us to live on this planet.
It is all of that, but mostly it's just this:
His presence.
It changes the atmosphere of this home when he walks through the front door. There's a deeper love, a deeper hope, a deeper faith, and it feels warm and cozy, like hot chocolate infront of a fire while it snows outside. The kids laugh more, and show off for him. And even after nearly 9 years of marriage, I still check myself in the mirror before he comes home to make sure I look pretty for him. (Although he thinks I'm pretty even first thing in the morning...I blame that on the fact that he doesn't have his contacts in yet. Bonus for me. :P)
So, yes, there may be cilantro all over the counter when he's here, but if that's the price of having the presence of the most amazing man snuggling up to me as we watch SYTYCD...er, I mean The Shield, it's worth every green leaf. In fact, I may just leave the toilet seat up tonight, so it's like he's really still here. ;)
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Day 10
Because baby K has some eczema issues, I have taken dairy, caffeine and...wait for it...chocolate *gasp* out of my diet.
I think I may die.
I think my body is in massive withdrawal.
And no, it's not quite cocaine, but I think I should be in rehab.
I think I need someone else to cook my meals and do my laundry and I think I need 6 hours a day to sit in the peace garden and think about my choices.
Sounds like an all inclusive trip to aruba if you ask me...so I'll take one of those too.
Lord have mercy on me...and anyone who comes in my path in the next week.
Monday, April 11, 2011
Day 9
We have these trees that go up our street.
They are called Sakura trees.
Or as you may know them...Cherry Blossom trees.
Our city has a Cherry Blossom Festival every year, and all of these trees in full bloom are incredible looking. When you are walking within their veil, it's as if you are in some fairytale land and you'd almost expect a unicorn being led by several winged pixies to pass you by.
For the past week, I've driven down our street, noticing these trees rich in bloom, and filing a mental note to take my camera the next time I leave the house to get some pictures.
They are called Sakura trees.
Or as you may know them...Cherry Blossom trees.
Our city has a Cherry Blossom Festival every year, and all of these trees in full bloom are incredible looking. When you are walking within their veil, it's as if you are in some fairytale land and you'd almost expect a unicorn being led by several winged pixies to pass you by.
For the past week, I've driven down our street, noticing these trees rich in bloom, and filing a mental note to take my camera the next time I leave the house to get some pictures.
And then I forget.
And another day goes by.
But the thing about Cherry Blossom trees is that it takes about one week for them to go from gnarly winter branches to in full bloom...and then within one more week, the blossoms begin to fall and cover the ground with a pale pink snow, until those trees are back to their gnarly branches once more.
So I can't keep "waiting one more day", or they'll be gone.
On my drive home today from being out with the boys, I noticed the trees again, and I also noticed this:
The pink snow had begun.
I was filled with a panic. I knew I needed to go grab my camera RIGHT then, but what if..in those 3 minutes it took me to do so, a mighty wind came and blew every last petal off?!?! Why didn't I do this days ago?! I had all these glorious days of full bloom and I took them for granted, thinking they'd be here forever...or at least one more day.
You know where this is heading don't you.
It brought to mind all the petals in my life. You know, those people who surround you, that make your life beautiful and even at times, fairytale-ish.
Those ones that no matter if they live in your town or a million zillion miles away, will always be there for you, just as you will for them.
Those special ones who fill your heart up so much, you just can't help but exclaim "I love you"s over and over...well, you will exclaim those' i love you's...
tomorrow...
...cause there's no time in the day today...
...but tomorrow, you certainly will tell them you love them.
...Cause you really really do...and they should hear it from you.
Tomorrow...for sure.
Let's do it today, ok?
Cause like the Cherry Blossom Trees...there's no telling when that mighty wind may come and sweep our precious petals on.
Day 8
That would be yesterday. Oops.
It gets a big SIGH!
It was crazy busy and then I got a lovely nap with baby K, a movie with my King Daddy and back to bed.
I feel so nice and rested up this morning, looking forward to a fun day with my boys while my girls are learning away at school...
Will be back for a Day 9 post after we see what's in store for today!
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Day 7
What do you see here?
Let me tell you a story.
When I was teaching a few years ago, there was this 5 year old boy in my class who could spend the entire day at the art table. He LOVED to create.
I remember one of my professors in university reminding us students over and over again that artwork with children is about the process, not the product.
And for this boy, that was certainly the case, as his finished products were no rembrant replicas. Yet, he would mold, or paint or draw, or glue all day long, with determination, passion, and enthusiasm.
Then came a day, about half way through the year. It began as any other, the moment he stepped into the classroom, he headed straight for the art table and planted himself infront of the colored charcoals, paints and blank papers.
But instead of diving in to all the colors, he just sat, with his hands clasped together in his lap, staring intently at the blank page before him. He stayed like this for 5 straight minutes without making a move. I did think to encourage him to chose an art medium to work with, but felt oddly, like I would be interrupting something...something strangely holy.
That's when he looked up at the charcoals, and made a calculated choice to begin with the red.
I shook my head, thinking it was a bizarre beginning to the day, but moved on to another area, and let him be.
It wasn't until his artwork was half done, when I checked on him again. What I saw on that paper absolutely took my breath away. He had used every color in that charcoal case, and was purposefully and carefully mapping out the most beautiful underwater scene. With a blue, grey and white whale taking center stage, surrounded by a school of bright yellow and red tiny fish, complete with several shades of green seaweed and brown and tan rocks for an ocean floor.
I was already wondering in my head if it would photocopy well, because I wanted a copy of this for MY home. It touched my heart in a way that no child's artwork had up to that point. It drew me in, and made me feel somehow safe, and excited and free of worldly cares.
If you have ever found yourself completely lost in a piece of music or in a stunning piece of architecture, then you know what I am talking about.
I was very much anticipating his completion of this masterpiece.
I walked away from the table again, and began preparing my group time stories, music, and flannel pieces. Once I was finished, I rang the bell for clean up, and like a giddy little child myself, headed back to the art table to behold the finished creation of this 5 year old boy.
When I saw what was on the paper in front of him, I was confused. It was not at all what I had seen before. All that was on it was blue. I looked around the table, on the floor, on the art wall, to see where the divine portrait of the sea had gone, but to no avail. It was nowhere. I asked him, with what must have sounded like a desperate plea, "Where is the beautiful ocean you were working so hard on, Colton?"
That's when he looked at me, with a confused expression on his face, then looked down at his blue page in front of him, changed his expression to an enormously proud grin, and said, "Well, it's right here Mrs.Campbell." Then continued with a whisper, like he was sharing a very juicy secret, "But you can't see the fish, because they are all under the water."
I kid you not when I tell you that a tear brimmed up in my eye as I realized that the majestic picture I had seen earlier was now fully covered in blue charcoal. No one would ever know what that boy made, except for me, and him.
I hung his blue square up on the art wall to take home at the end of class.
When his mother arrived, she collected his jacket and backpack, and went to the art wall, knowing her son would have something to take home, as he did every day. As I was walking over to her to share this amazing story of what was hidden undreneath, she caught my eye as she was taking down the blue square and winked as she mouthed to me, "File it!" Which of course meant she was going to throw it out once her son was not looking because obviously it was nothing special and her home was already brimming over with artwork.
She did "file" the blue square.
And when all the students had gone, I took it out, and took it home.
I still have the blue square.
It is THE most precious piece of art in my house.
This story is to go along with the thoughts of Day 5.
WE are God's artwork. HIS masterpiece. We've been created with these amazing colors and shapes and lines and shades. Within each of us lays such beauty and truly divine and unique properties.
Yet so often...when we look at each other... talk to each other... work with each other...
...all we see is a plain piece of blue paper.
I'm challenging you.
And me.
To look beyond the blue, and to see the hues, the shades, the brilliant colors that make us all the most marvelous pieces of artwork.
Friday, April 8, 2011
Day 6
April 8th is a great day. Can you guess why?
I know you're thinking it's because on this day in 1893, the first recorded college basketball game occured in Beaver Falls, Pennsylvania.
You're so smart, but not what I'm thinking about.
What's that? It's a great day because in 1911, Dutch physicist Heike Kamerlingh Onnes discovered superconductivity? Uh, yeah, that was pretty cool...but believe it or not, I know something even COOLER that happened on this day.
Oooohhhh, cause in 1873, Japan began celebrating Buddha's birthday on this day?
But.
You are getting warmer.
Someone WAS born this day who in my humble, yet always right opinion, is much MUCH more awesome, and certainly better looking, than Buddha.
Ahhh, wasn't that fun.
My Julia Goolia has been on this planet now for 3-0 years today!!
She lives way far away from me now, in another country in fact, (Thanks a lot hubby of Julia Goolia! ;) ) which makes my heart sad. And I REALLY wish I could be with her today and celebrate big and party hard...well, not too hard, we don't want her fragile 30 year old bones to crack...gotta be taking that Caltrate now!
My love, it's been a pleasure watching you "grow up". Well, kind of. Who am I kidding. We'll never grow up. Well, then, it's been a pleasure being on the planet 30 years with you and always acting like we're 15 together. Archery pit forever. :P
In honor of your big milestone, I whipped this up in between loads of laundry this morning.
The post office said they couldn't mail it though, so I guess I'll just have to eat it all myself. Think of all those calories I am sacrificially taking on myself rather than giving to you. That's right, happy birthday, from your most selfless friend.
The post office said they couldn't mail it though, so I guess I'll just have to eat it all myself. Think of all those calories I am sacrificially taking on myself rather than giving to you. That's right, happy birthday, from your most selfless friend.
Have a very special day, and get ready... because the best year of your life thus far has begun today!
Heaps of love darlin!
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Day 5
I am CONVINCED there must be little people...no, not like the Roloff family...but like teeny people, like leprechauns or fairies or something reeking havoc in my home today.
Because I know that I'd NEVER lose my purse...3 times...within 15 minutes. I know I didn't put it by the baby car seat. But, wonder of wonders, there it is, by the baby car seat.
And I know that I turned the stove burner on to boil the pot of water, but alas, when I go to dump the box of kraft dinner...er...I mean 100% organic soy beans... in it, it's as cold as the arctic and the burner is off.
And seriously, who wears their slippers to drop off their kids to school? Oh, you do? Well do you go into starbucks after, still wearing them, forgetting you're wearing them, and thinking you obviously must look more fabulous than you feel because EVERYONE is staring at you? Apparently I do, even though I was sure that I put my mom runners...I mean Jimmy Choos on this morning.
And finally, the rock solid proof that there's some mischievous little beings up to no good was when I was driving to pick UP the girls from school, and while sitting at a red light, was surprisingly joined in the front seat by a very pleased 2 year old. There's NO way he knows how to undo his buckle. Heck, his Grammas can't even undo his buckle. Which leaves one very scary realization. The leprechauns escaped out of my house and into my van and undid his seatbelt. And I would hate to tell you that they did it TWICE today. This has NEVER happened before.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Day 4
Love others as yourself.
Is that really possible?
Well, today I think I was given a key as to how to begin to do this.
I think before you can love others as yourself, you need to SEE others as you see yourself.
Today, I was stopped at a red light, and I looked at each single face that walked across the crosswalk, in front of my van.
It struck me that God loves each single one of those as much as He loves me. That lady with the hat that does NOT match her jacket and glasses that are WAY too big, and pants that are at least an inch too short even to be called flood pants...the one that would be easy to make fun of or even just dismiss....she is loved and wanted desperately by our Heavenly Father just as I am.
EXACTLY as I am.
It's not that I'm self centered and think, "Wow, how could God love someone as much as He loves me? Cause I'm so awesome." ;)
See, I grew up singing Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Bible tells me so. And something happened in me from a very young age..I actually believed it. And still do. I DO believe I am His favorite. And in the same breath, I believe that every single person who has lived and who will live, is also His very favorite. Each one is His craftmanship. His design. His pride.
THAT makes me want to KNOW every single person!!
Because I REALLY want to know God.
I think once we see others how HE sees them, it will be only natural to love them and serve them as you would for yourself.
It's a revelation hard to put into words really, but I know that it changed something in me today. And the world suddenly looks a whole lot brighter. Since it's full of HIS artwork, in the form of all of us.
THAT makes me want to KNOW every single person!!
Because I REALLY want to know God.
I think once we see others how HE sees them, it will be only natural to love them and serve them as you would for yourself.
It's a revelation hard to put into words really, but I know that it changed something in me today. And the world suddenly looks a whole lot brighter. Since it's full of HIS artwork, in the form of all of us.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Day 3
Kay, what on earth??
Canadians are known for their politeness.
Well then, I musta crossed the boarder for our lunch at McDonalds today...
I know that if I saw a mother with a preschooler running circles around her legs while she was carrying a heavy baby carseat on one arm and balancing a very lopsided meal tray packed with drinks and mc-nuggies and possibly a mc-cinnamon-bun thingy on the other, I would SURELY open the door to the play place for her. Cause that's what people do. Right? Well, Canadian nice polite people...right?
I was appalled today when the above mentioned lady was myself and I literally made EYE CONTACT and smiles to more than a few MOTHERS sitting inside the playplace, and not one even flinched to move to open the door for me! One lady looked right at me, assessed the situation with her eyes, and then went right back to the (musta been very important) newspaper she was browsing!
Appalled.
So, I'd like to take this moment to apologize to myself on the behalf of those selfish and unhelpful ladies for acting truly UN-Canadian! And Un-mothers-helping-mothers-ly. Rude. Have I mentioned appalled?
Ok, I forgive you. But if there happens to be mini ketchup packets smushed onto the front windshield of your minivan...it wasn't me.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Day 2
Two things on my mind today.
First...how come I keep getting wiffs of something that smells like burnt plastic?
My first thought was that Daddy G maybe was using the stove this morning and left a burner on with our plastic colander on it...um, not that that's ever happened before. (Thank goodness for 2.99 replacements at Ikea.) But alas, no stove was on. Then I thought maybe something was resting on our floor heater, I did notice my wool slipper sox laying on it yesterday...maybe wool melts? Nah, nothing on the heater. Maybe my glue gun is on somewhere slowly letting out tiny bits of melted glue that over time has created a mile high plasti-mountain. Nope. Glue gun's off.
Now are you ready for the big reveal of what the mystery smell is?
Yeah, me too.
Sorry, I still don't know. It's driving me nuts.
So anti-climactic.
Second...I love grammas. In the last 3 weeks, both grammas have made visits to our home, and the joy and craziness of the kids just melts my heart.
Maybe that's what's melting....sorry, sidetracked.
Here's a couple pics of baby K with the grammas.
King Daddy G's momma:
My momma:
That's about it for today...
edited to add: JACKPOT!!! Found the plastic culprit!! Mr. ducky has seen better days. I rescued him halfway through his cremation INSIDE the heater!
First...how come I keep getting wiffs of something that smells like burnt plastic?
My first thought was that Daddy G maybe was using the stove this morning and left a burner on with our plastic colander on it...um, not that that's ever happened before. (Thank goodness for 2.99 replacements at Ikea.) But alas, no stove was on. Then I thought maybe something was resting on our floor heater, I did notice my wool slipper sox laying on it yesterday...maybe wool melts? Nah, nothing on the heater. Maybe my glue gun is on somewhere slowly letting out tiny bits of melted glue that over time has created a mile high plasti-mountain. Nope. Glue gun's off.
Now are you ready for the big reveal of what the mystery smell is?
Yeah, me too.
Sorry, I still don't know. It's driving me nuts.
So anti-climactic.
Second...I love grammas. In the last 3 weeks, both grammas have made visits to our home, and the joy and craziness of the kids just melts my heart.
Maybe that's what's melting....sorry, sidetracked.
Here's a couple pics of baby K with the grammas.
King Daddy G's momma:
My momma:
That's about it for today...
edited to add: JACKPOT!!! Found the plastic culprit!! Mr. ducky has seen better days. I rescued him halfway through his cremation INSIDE the heater!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Day 1
So here's the thing.
I have 4 babies running around my legs all day long.
So those 40 page, ultra witty posts are of the days of old.
But I have had all this guilt about neglecting my blog and really WANTING to write, but seriously not having a spare second in the day.
So I have decided to do a 30 day "Thoughts of the day" post-a-thon for the next, well, 30 days. :)
Who knows what you will get. Maybe a picture. Maybe a story. Maybe nothing more than a "Blaarrrrggg".
But I promise to share whatever randomness is on my mind that day. Time for some blog love.
Today is:
DAY 1
All I can say today is that I am SO glad that it's the last day of our 2week spring break. The kids are going stir crazy in this house, as it's rained way too much lately. I am so looking forward to packing their lunches and waving them off with a huge smile on my face, as they go to the Academy of Higher Learning tomorrow morning. (That's not really what their school is called. But it sounds regal right? :P)
I love my babes and love having them home with me...so...Yay for spring break.
But more so...Yay for the END of spring break! Momma needs a break now!!
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